GOD IS A HEALER!!! He still hears us!!!
I went through a very difficult time recently. I found myself fornicating and committing adultery with a married man. (I know…) But I’m here to share because God wants you to know He accepts people of ALL walks. Regardless of our pasts, if we just ask for repentance and hunger for His word… He will Heal you. He WANTS to heal you.
In November 2017 – 7 months ago, I went for a doctor visit after learning that my son’s father that I had been in a relationship with for 7 years cheated on me and made two babies with two different women (with both children born a month apart). My son was his first child. We had always been really close and pretty much best friends so I was certainly taken by surprise. The cheating took place after he and I stopped being intimate as I was in my last semester of graduate school with a newborn trying to build a foundation and future for our family. I was devastated. But I walked away with grace even after he begged that we stay together. I’ve always had a strong relationship with God and knew that even this pain would pass. I’m surprised I’m not sitting in a jail cell for attempted murder honestly! LOL. Looking back at this situation, I know it was only by the grace of God that I was able to maintain such peace. After my breakup, I found myself becoming highly attracted to a married man at my job that was pursuing me. He too, a proclaimed Christian man had never done anything so insane. We fell in a trap. We sinned. And I certainly felt the pain of it. He never contracted the disease but my doctor told me that I had.
Unable to accept this new stigmatized disease, I cried out. I screamed. I prayed. I searched the internet, I searched for cures. I searched all over, only to find people saying God doesn’t heal herpes just deal with it, maybe one day there will be a cure but not today. I came across a testimony ON THIS SITE that provided me all the encouragement I needed. She led me to a website – called 2jesus.org. After reaching out to Pastor Ferd who runs the site, he sent me the most encouraging email! I ordered his book about healing and read the entire thing in one week. He prayed for me. I prayed for myself. People prayed over me at church. I studied God’s word. I asked for forgiveness. I forgave those who hurt me. I let my pain go. I built my relationship back up with the Lord. I was so confident that God heard me and healed that I went to get tested again at a different facility. Imagine how crushed I was when that doctor told me I tested positive for HSV. AGAIN. I was hurt, I thought I didn’t believe I was worthy of being saved. I fell victim to my own sorrow. But eventually months later, I found encouragement again in His word. I randomly opened my Bible one day and came across Jeremiah 30:10-17
10 “‘So do not be afraid, Jacob my servant;
do not be dismayed, Israel,’
declares the Lord.
‘I will surely save you out of a distant place,
your descendants from the land of their exile.
Jacob will again have peace and security,
and no one will make him afraid.
11 I am with you and will save you,’
declares the Lord.
‘Though I completely destroy all the nations
among which I scatter you,
I will not completely destroy you.
I will discipline you but only in due measure;
I will not let you go entirely unpunished.’
12 “This is what the Lord says:
“‘Your wound is incurable,
your injury beyond healing.
13 There is no one to plead your cause,
no remedy for your sore,
no healing for you.
14 All your allies have forgotten you;
they care nothing for you.
I have struck you as an enemy would
and punished you as would the cruel,
because your guilt is so great
and your sins so many.
15 Why do you cry out over your wound,
your pain that has no cure?
Because of your great guilt and many sins
I have done these things to you.
16 “‘But all who devour you will be devoured;
all your enemies will go into exile.
Those who plunder you will be plundered;
all who make spoil of you I will despoil.
17 But I will restore you to health
and heal your wounds,’
declares the Lord,
‘because you are called an outcast,
Zion for whom no one cares.
This scripture was so specific to my situation that there was no way God didn’t heal me. I knew God wouldn’t give up on me. I went to be retested last week, and BOOM! RESULTS CAME BACK NEGATIVE!
God purified my blood! He cleansed my blood with His blood! I feel so loved and completely renewed. He gave me another chance, He didn’t give up on me. I am SO overwhelmed with joy and grateful for the amount of encouragement I found EVEN ON THE INTERNET. It was a very trying time for me and keeping my faith was very hard. I felt overlooked and forgotten… unworthy. Shameful. Guilty. The devil tried to make me feel as if God doesn’t perform miracles for people today like He did back when when Jesus walked the Earth… BUT GOD! God heard our prayers, He saved me and He wants to save YOU! I will be His vessel! By His stripes WE are healed… if we only believe.