Almost a year ago I was diagnosed with HSV2. I had all the symptoms, swollen groin and open ulcers in my vagina. I went to my local clinic and had a culture swab and a few days later I was told the devastating news that I had genital herpes. From that moment I refused this diagnosis and believed that God would heal me.
I began praying and fasting 1x a week and listening to sermons which preached believing God for healing, but nothing changed, I continued to experience fortnightly outbreaks. I then began getting angry at God and started to believe that his word was a lie because I was declaring his promises over my life, but my situation was the same.
Even though there were many instances where for example someone would randomly tell me that God said they should pray for me, or I will stumble across a prayer/testimony or scripture that spoke directly to my situation. I began to fornicate and just try and live with the herpes but in the back of my mind still hoped that God would heal me.
I stumbled across a YouTube video of a lady who fasted and received healing and I decided to do what she had done which was pray and fast every day for a week with a dry fast on the final day. I prayed like I had never prayed before, reminding God of his promises and everyday focused on a different story of his healing in the bible. The following week after my fast had another outbreak. This was just an ongoing battle where I would have an outbreak 1x every 3 weeks or so that would last maybe 3 days; it would pray whilst I had an outbreak but when I was fine, I did what I wanted.
Fast forward to this month, I had a heart to heart with God where I was like why do I not hear from you, am I talking to myself? Your word says Xyz yet you are silent. I was angry for a few days and refused to pray or read my bible again but as much as I tried to be angry and push myself away from him I couldn’t. It was I who was having pre-marital sex and was living in sin, why was I angry at God.
I became so depressed (I had been from my initial diagnoses but this was worse) I was suicidal and just started telling God to take my life, praying that I wouldn’t wake up and googling whether I would go to hell if I committed suicide, I wanted to die and was ready to go!
One night on social media I kept seeing this video, but I didn’t click it then maybe the 5th time I saw it I did; it was a testimony from a man with Covid 19 and I began crying uncontrollably. Something then told me to open the bible app and the story of the day was about God I’d going to heal you just wait!
That night I felt a crazy feeling of sleep and I just slept. The next few days I began to realise that I had to strip myself and rely on God to be my strength and get back up when I fall, rather than staying on the ground like I would do.
God began to speak to me via again stumbling across testimonies or verses where God was clearly saying that I have not forgotten you, I am coming, and I accepted this. I promised to make a better effort to strip my flesh and feed my spirit (trust me when I say I am not even close to good at this let alone perfect) but I believe God saw my heart and that I genuinely wanted to live a life which prioritised him.
I began to have symptoms of an outbreak but not my normal symptoms, it was as if it was my 1st one again. I had a swollen groin and these times my ulcers were open, red and sore; I was so uncomfortable. I cried out to God in pain but instead I unconsciously started thanking God that even if he didn’t heal me he would allow me to live a life that is not impacted my diagnosis or that even if he was not going to heal me today or in a few years that it would come and I will still find love, marry and have children (I started becoming depressed that I could never have this because who would want me).
I booked an appointment at my sexual health clinic because I decided that it was time for to have suppressive treatment and because this outbreak was different, and I couldn’t wait to heal alone. The clinician took one look and said that yes this is herpes (for some reason I decided not to tell her that I already had been diagnosed last year elsewhere), she took a culture swab and prescribed me treatment which began to clear up.
I started praying in confidence that God, you have the final say, you have the power to make the impossible possible, only you have power over my life. You have died for my sins, why should I live with the consequences of my sins, even though everything right now is telling me I have herpes right now, you can change my results at the final second even if the human mind cannot comprehend this.
Guys about 30 mins ago I am on my phone and receive a text that all my results are negative. Huhhhhhhhh??!! I call them straight away and I spoke to the same lady who tested me, and she was like she doesn’t know what caused what I had that it could have been thrush but there was a sample, and it came back negative.
I kept asking if she was sure and she understood my confusion because I HAD ALL THE SYMPTOMS but she was clear that she took 2 samples from me, and my skin was raw enough to pick up if I had herpes and that a culture test is the best test to do (I know this because I have had it before).
Look at God, constantly surprising me and meeting me at the point of my need. Hold on to God, remind him of his promises to you every day but at the same time what lesson does God want you to learn from this. Whatever what happens God has a plan for you that gives you hope and a future herpes or not!!!
After your test, did you ever have an outbreak again?
To Jesus be the glory! ! !
Amen
AMEN thank you Jesus however I disagree with you on the last part the reason you got healed is because you are saved. but God having a plan for you herpes or not if you didn’t get healed youd be going to hell so there’s no plan herpes or not for God to have a plan with herpes is not a thorn in the flesh type of thing so GOD won’t use it unless his mind is made up that your not going to go to heaven john 8;24 that is why I told you unless you believe that i am he you will die in your sins.1 Corinthians 6:18 flee from sexual immorality all other sins a person commits is outside the body but the one that sins sexually sins against your body. 1 corinthians 6:19 Do you know that your body is the temple of the Holy spirit who is in you who you received from God. You are not your own. 1 corinthians 3:17 if anyone destroys GODS temple GOD will destroy them. so if he leaves herpes in you he’s not wanting you to go to heaven and your sentence is already made to Hell with no chance to go to heaven which is a very heavy weight to carry the rest of your life. 1 john 1:19 if we confess our sins that is to GOD through JESUS CHRIST not to man as man can not forgive sins only GOD can he is faithful and just to forgive you and cleanse you of all unrighteousness. James 2:26 just as the body without the spirit is dead faith without works is dead. 1 corinthians 1021 you cannot drink from the cup of the Lord and cup of demons too you cannot have a part in both the LORDs table and table of demons too and since herpes comes from the spirits of enchantress jezebel incubus and succubus and the spirit of infirmity and spirit of iniquity and sexual sin spirits having herpes is partaking at the table of demons since it comes from demons and is a demon itself so if you didn’t get healed then you would be going to Hell so thank you Jesus for blessing this one unlike so many are not so blessed and have been deceived living with this and has no hope to enter heaven because of it so God does have a plan but a plan without herpes not with it unless his plans are for you to have no forgiveness ever and be judged when you stand before him with an unclean body sentenced to hell. I just wish i was as blessed as you are stay blessed and don’t go back to sin.
Are you saying that if someone doesn’t get healed, they can’t be saved? I don’t agree with your theology. Jesus took our infirmities and carried away our disease and bore our sin. Salvation is generously given by God! It doesn’t depend on the condition of one’s physical body.
Human being is made up off spirit, soul and body. When Adam and Eve sinned in the Garden of Eden, their spirits and souls automatically became dead. It was later that their flesh (body) died and were buried in the grave.
Physical bodies (flesh) are not found in Heaven. All physical bodies will decay in the grave or for the living at the time of rapture, there mortal bodies transformed into immortal bodies.
An unbeliever that is in sin has his/her spirit, soul and body in the captives of sin. At salvation, his/her spirit and soul are liberated from sin and his/her spirit and soul become alive. He/she is now born again. Born again is the rebirth of the spirit and soul mainly. Anyone that has his/her spirit and soul rebirthed will surely make it to heaven irrespective of the thorn in his/her flesh. The prisoner nailed at the right side of Jesus made it to heaven because his spirit and soul were saved even though his physical body was still held in the bondage of death but his spirit and soul didn’t die.
Matthew 6:33 said we should seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all other things shall be added like healing, riches as the Lord wills. But the paramount is to first seek the kingdom of God and his righteousness through salvation of our spirits and souls.
Let me analyze with someone in the bondage of Herpes. As the person is caught up with the herpes through sexual sin, his/her spirit, soul and body are held in the captives of the sin. At salvation, his/her spirit and soul are fully liberated even though his/her body might not be liberated at that time. If he/she dies without his/her physical bodies being liberated but kept the salvation of the spirit and soul intact, he/she will make it to heaven because his/her heart (mind) which is part of his/her soul is pure before God and the physical body is decaying in the grave.
John 4:24 says God is Spirit and they that worship Him must worship Him in spirit and in truth. Once your spirit and soul is alive, you can worship God and your worship will be accepted.
Nothing must separate us from the love of Christ, sickness or trials of any kind. Whatever is the thorn in the flesh, if you prayed to God to remove it and He has not yet, He knows best for you. What is important is to make heaven and through the salvation of your spirit and soul, you will make heaven. God knows the best things we need at all times that will keep our eyes focused on the journey to heaven. He might allow some thorn in the flesh of someone whose spirit and soul is saved, to humble him/her and prevent him/her from being derailed. Our prayers at all times should be, Lord let Your Will be done in my life.
Also Jss, read about Lazarus and the rich man in Luke 16:19-31. Lazarus with all the sickness in his flesh (body) made it to heaven because his heart was for God. His spirit and soul are saved, so he made it to heaven. The rich man whose spirit and soul were dead end up in hell. The bible says the soul that sins must die. The bible also says what profit will one have gaining all the world and ending in hell.
We are in the last days. Different doctrines are all going all over the world to derail people from God. We are in the perilous times spoken of in 1 Timothy 4:1-5 and 2 Timothy 3:1-5. We need to be very spiritually sensitive these times we are. May the Lord continue to teach us by Himself.