God Freed me from Anger, Lack of Faith, and Porn

Today is Saturday, last Monday I had an experience that I want to share.

I was watching this video testimony on delafe testimonies. I had downloaded a couple of them and was watching them serially. In-between I would sleep off and awake. At a time, I awoke to a testimony of a guy who had been in prison for a long time, and it got me fully awake. Now at the end, he was asked to pray for people watching.

During the prayers, I noticed he repeatedly used “Father” over and over and my heart wondered why.
I had to go back and restart the testimony which was over one and a half hours long and this time I was awake all through.

When it got to the end again and he started the praying, my heart remembered to count how many times he used the word – “Father”. Just as I started counting on my fingers, I heard a voice say to my mind – the number of times he uses the word Father is the number of days it will take for God to answer you. So, I counted, and it was only 4 times. I was shocked because at the first time I had sensed much more like more than 10.

Well, I was quite excited thinking God will open a financial (my main prayer point for years) door for me in just 4 days. Friday, the fourth day came and went, and no financial door opened!!! And I was almost depressed.

That day I had to go pick up my second daughter from her university for the Christmas holidays. It had been moved back two days from the original date, and I had to even ask a friend for money to fuel my car.

Now here is what God brought to my mind that night after spending most of that evening in disappointment at my not hearing right! – God gave me a moment of clarity before I slept, and I realized the following:

1. I was no longer the furious person I always was. God had removed the spirit of anger from me. This is huge!!! I always struggled with anger and fear.Let me explain that after picking my daughter we experienced a most terrible traffic congestion for over an hour, in the most suffocating heat, and dust. Also my car isn’t in a good condition – I need a new engine! So I had my heart in my mouth that it wasn’t going to pack up under those terrible stresses!!! Enough frustrations that normal me would be explosive and touchy, etc.,. But no, I wasn’t. I patiently went through it all in an unusual cool.
2. God also showed me that my Faith had increased. I didn’t get what I was expecting but suddenly while in the bathroom I got this flow of Joy that I started to thank God for His mercies all around me and to dance and sing in tongues. I received this supernatural Peace in the midst of so much I still don’t understand.
3. I also realized that I had stayed for 4 months without looking at porn despite so many temptations. And this is another big one. Sometimes the devil tempted me with sexual dreams to introduce that fowl spirit into me, but before it went far into actual sex I got woken up and I would pray for strength. Because what used to happen was that once I had such dreams, within a few days I would fall back into porn. It’s like a spiritual bait that translated into reality.

Now it no longer worked, I’m free. The attraction has left. It’s only a few months but I can feel the freedom that it’s gone for good this time.

So, while I was expecting money, God showed me He had freed me from the spirit of anger (fear actually), lack of faith, and porn which had been very big doors the enemy had been using in my life to come steal, kill and destroy.
Praise the Lord!!!