I am getting baptized this coming Sunday, 25th Sept and I wanted to share my testimony with as many people as possible!!
I hadn’t always believed in God. Growing up I was brought up with Christian morals, I was taught the stories from the bible, and we took part in the occasional carol service, but we weren’t church goers.
A few times during my childhood and teen years, I became interested in Christianity but after a few weeks I’d become bored of it and stop again.
During my late teens and early 20’s I was doing what most people my age were doing, drinking too much, partying all night. But I became miserable. I knew something was missing but I couldn’t work out what it was.
However, there were good times too. I had my children, my son Thomas and my daughter Katie. When he was old enough, I was looking for a toddler group for Thomas and saw that Bethel held one.
I was given a flyer for a lady’s quiz night held here at the church, so I went along.
Now 2010 was NOT a good year and as the speaker was talking about how wonderful God was and how happy He made her, I felt myself getting angrier and angrier. After all, if He was so great and loved us all, why was my life in complete tatters??!
At the end of the talk one of the ladies from the church mentioned there was a Christianity Explored course starting soon and because I was a bit emotional and scared at the time, my friend Jacquie asked for the details on my behalf saying maybe it would bring me some of the answers to my questions.
Before I knew it, I had started going along to the course. There were two other ladies there Sharon, who most of you know and Claire, both of whom were and still are Christians. I got to the point where I wanted to believe but I still didn’t really get it.
A few weeks later I received yet another bit of bad news. It was quite late at night, and everything was quiet. I couldn’t hold it in anymore and I started crying my heart out.
Then in a split second, I breathed in to let another sob out, but instead I felt this amazing presence. It felt like I was being given a huge cuddle and I was being told everything was going to be alright, I just had to let go of my doubts and He would be there for me.
The Holy Spirit had actually come and sat with me in my hour of need!!
Of course, as I said, it was really late, so I had to hold it all in while I grinned away, waiting for morning.
I saw Sharon at the school and told her everything that had happened, and she was just as excited as I was. I continued with the course and saw everything with new eyes. Passages we had covered before had new meaning.
I also started going to church, where everyone was also really happy for me that I had found Jesus. And also, really patient with my frequent, “I believe in Jesus, but what about…” Time and time again the advice was, pray for the answers. And everyone was right, I found them in Jesus.
I know now that He is always watching over me, guiding me and he will always be there, whether I think I need him or not.
I promise to dedicate my life to my Lord Jesus Christ, and to live my life as he wants me to. He is my world and even if times get hard, I can rest assured that He has my best interests at heart even if the journey there is a bit bumpy! Because even if I slip up, Jesus died for my sins on the cross, so I know I can stand up brush myself off and try again!
I love the way that God has planned my life out and brought me along this path, ultimately leading me to the church and to this day of my baptism.
He has saved me.