I was depressed, suicidal, and numb.
At the same time, I was pretending to be happy, hiding behind a smile, and suffocating on the inside. I was in a yearlong toxic relationship, and I didn’t have the faith to continue working on it, so I broke up with her. A decision I sometimes regret and am unsure was the right thing to do.
However, after I broke up with her the greatest thing in my entire life happened. I watched “Here I Am // Here is Holy: Part 1 series by Michael Todd”. After watching this sermon, I gave my life to Jesus and went from a believer to a disciple. I slowly went from questioning whether there was a God, to trusting my life to God. I have sheer, utter faith that no matter what happens I will be okay. I am happy. I am at peace. I am no longer bound by this world’s views. I am solely and completely focused on serving my God.
That sermon was where my journey started. 7 months into my journey I can’t go a day, or even hour without talking about The Lord, My God. I am in love beyond compare. Grateful more than Israelites set free from slavery. Excited more than David becoming king. And obsessed more than anyone that has walked this earth. I know that my loving God will never forsake me, and even if he did, for him, I would become a stalker, creeping just to see his face, just to hear his voice, just to breathe the air that touches his body.
I came to this app only to see others’ testimonies and know more about what God is doing. He is more than intriguing or enticing. He is my will to live. I will become a weirdo or look crazy if it means I get to be in God’s presence more. I will bring heaven to earth just to be closer to him. And I will never disobey my loving God.
I will not bow down to anyone, except God. For God, I will fully prostrate my body before him, so he knows that he is the one who I give my life to. I will never dare treat a man with the same treatment I do God. Even if he tried to get away, I will never let my God go. Without him I am worthless. With him I am already everything I ever want to be.
I can’t wait to die and see him. I cannot wait to have him judge me. I look forward to death with a smile. But until that day I will continue bringing heaven to earth.
I love your spirit, Marcellous. You are so encouraging. Thanks for this.
Thank God for the salvation. May the name of God be glorified forever.
God created you for a purpose and the first step of knowing His purpose for one is salvation. Everyone’s purpose is in the Bible. We are told in Joshua 1:8 that we should always read and study the Bible because it is the word of God that will give us success. Keep studying the Bible and fellowship with believers. Keep serving the Lord faithfully to the end. May the Lord continue to strengthen you for His service.
Shalom
Such a powerful testimony. That’s how I feel about God. Love pastor Michael Todd sermons as well.
God never disappoints us. Sometimes we are unhappy with the way He answers our prayers, however, when we give our life to Him and ask Him for divine guidance, He directs us in the way we should go. I have experienced His divine intervention in my life multiple times in spite of my disobedience and strongly believe that even when we face disappointments, we should give Him thanks for those as well.