Last year I was really struggling with anxiety, depression, self-hatred, OCD and BPD. I was always feeling hopeless in everything I did and would always cry myself to sleep. While in this state, I watched a lot of TikTok videos and my For You Page was normally filled with depressing content.
So, one day, I came across a topic called self-harm, I started doing that because I saw quite a lot of people on my For You Page do it as a pain relief. At first it started out as a small thing but eventually it became an addiction. I used to cut myself every day even though I wasn’t depressed. This little addiction continued until God used my mother as a method to get to me.
When my mom found out, I wasn’t angry at her for finding out and I wasn’t angry at her found shouting or questioning me. She started telling me about God and how he loves me so much and wouldn’t want this to continue happening.
I felt at peace for the first time. All the voices in my head became silent. My heart wasn’t crying anymore. I felt God’s presence at that moment and that’s how I accepted Christ in my life.
My testimony is not all great but the day I felt what real peace feels like. I knew I needed God. I no longer experience the symptoms of BPD and OCD like before. It’s much calmer now but I’ll know God is still working on me.
Thanks be to God for bringing you into the Light. Continue to grow in faith.
Praise God! What a wonderful testimony, Daniella! May God continue to bless you with His peace. Please pray for others who are caught up in this form of self harm. It’s been around a long time and so many are trapped in it. God bless you!