I am a strong believer in Christ, and I named Him as my savior. I am a Sophomore in college and I love Chemistry a lot which is actually my major. One of my biggest dreams is to become a medical doctor and work in undeveloped countries where there is a big shortage of medical doctors. I decided to major in Chemistry but the road has been challenging.
I have always believed in doing something that I am passionate about, and this is Chemistry. I plan on going to medical school right after I graduate. However, medical schools are very competitive and my grades have been bad because the Calculus and Physics put my grade point average very low and yet I’m performing really well in my other courses.
I accepted Christ this past summer when I went to India to volunteer working with orphans from this non profit organisation. The road of my faith has been getting shaken each time I am in trouble like this. I cry everyday, I have lost weight, I have endless assignments everyday and I feel like I have no life. I am currently on a full scholarship and I have to keep at least a 3.0 gpa to be considered for it each semester. So far I have a 2.81 and God already made a miracle by not letting my scholarship taken away. My parents don’t like me and I financially support myself and the help of friends.
I have though of committing suicide many times but I always tell myself that God hasn’t failed me yet. I read the Bible everyday, each night and each morning before I go to class but it seems what I asked the Lord to do for me hasn’t been done. Because of this, I have been doubting a lot but at the same time I know God is faithful until the end. This semester, I am scared , in fear because my PA is going down soon since im failing Calculus and Physics. Since I am pre-med, these classes are required and I cant imagine giving up my dream of wanting to go to medical school just because of these subjects.
I am scared that my scholarship will be taken away and the road to medical school will not be possible. I am faithful that the Lord will deliver me from this trouble. I feel like giving up sometimes but I cant because so many people like my parents want me to fail. my father kicked me out of the house when in high school and now I live with my high school teacher. My mom died and have nobody who can support me. Most of the people who are helping right now are expecting me to do well in school and accomplish my dream and be able to support myself.
As I type this, I am crying. I sleep about 4,5 or even less only studying and putting my best effort. I get tutoring which is only 30 minutes session once a day but sometimes I can’t make it because I have classes. This Monday I will be getting my Physics test back and I’m so scared that I feel like quitting right now and drop out of college.
The Lord is faithful again and I keep telling myself this. God didn’t just put me in college and then abandon me. I believe that he can help me and I need to trust in Him. I am waiting for God to do a miracle on my final exams so that I can have a descent GPA and grades. Please friends, pray for me and I believe that the almighty will help me. God is faithful and He will not leave me. Thank you.
hi,
is there a church near your college or where you live? it is VERY important you stay connected with another believer or believers for support especially when in college when it’s SO stressful! we can’t do this alone, we need others in the body of Christ. 🙂 regarding your grades, God WILL pull you through. his arm is not too short to save! he grants his children (us) favor! believe me, i’ve been there. i had stress, depression/dark times, fear but little by little surrendered my classes/goals to him by spending time worshiping/praising and reading his word daily. you must SURRENDER. it is good to praise him out loud in song and reading his word out loud too.
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. (Romans 8:37)
God bless you. 🙂
Dear beloved Child of Christ, I was move with compassion for you as I had gone through the similar situation in my life and so i’m thankful to God that he enabled me to pray for you wholeheartedly right now and God gives this message for you…
please read…Luke6:21,22.
It says..
Blessed are you who hunger now,
for you will be satisfied.
Blessed are you who weep now,
for you will laugh.
Blessed are youwhen men hate you,
when they exclude you and insult you
and reject your name as evil
because of the son of man
Dear precious child, Rejoice and leap for joy because great is your reward in heaven.
You have entered into the season of blessings where the God Jesus Christ our Lord will shower his blessings like rain from heaven on you, so be ready for the amazing miracles of Christ, this is YOUR time now.
The name of Jesus is more powerful and more fruitful and more stronger than physics chemistry
Hi when I read this I could really Feel your pain. not long after I gave my heart to christ, thoughts were being thrown into my head to give up and to give up on life. once in a dream satan tried to use the image of one of my friends to tell me that I wasnt meant to be with God so dont bother trying. the day after I renounced in Jesus name that dream and after felt stronger. I ask you please renounce those thoughts of giving up in his name and talk to God about the tings that trouble you.
Remember that God is bigger than your circumstances.
when I started tech (college) I had nothing and I soon found out that because I had no prof of who I was no National insurance number, nothing that it was Impossible to put me on the system in tech but Im on it!!!
Praise the Lord =)
I can understand your situation. The fact that you received a full scholarship is proof that you have what it takes to do it!! Yes find a church where you can be prayed for and ecouraged, stay connected to other believers of Christ. The Lord did not bless you with that scholarship to leave you, just try to do your part. Talk with the professors and get studying advise form them, pay close attention in classes and make friends with the students in class who are excelling. You can study with them. You are in my prayers and do not worry about anything but in everything by prayer and supplication make your requests known to God.
Be Blessed
Thank you all for your support and please keep praying for me as final exams are approaching. I am studying hard the Almighty will finish the mission. I am glad I found out this site otherwise I dont know what the real me could have been. God bless you all and thank you so much.
Hey there ! im probably late .. your exams are probably over but just incase i feel your pain.. I have an Honors english teacher that grades HARD shes not like every common teacher, she grades like college type material because she says that when she got to college everyting her High school teachers teached her was wrong soo she teaches us technically 10th grade stuff but in college form.. Even our research papers are SUPER hard to do and you would think as a 10th grader that research papers are easy but not the way my teacher is making us do it. My grade has been going down because of this but i love the subject and the teacher and i know its for my future but is hard. IVE BEEN SOOO FRUSTRATED!!! i dont want to let my parents down and you shoudnt either well your teacher which in your case has been kind of a guardian b/c you live under her roof… and the people that support you and the people writing to you here.. which we all took the time to help and write to you . I have felt like God hasnt been really helping me and i have asked for help but only he knows how he does his things.Tomorrow i have an exam SUPER hard but i kept my mind positive b.c positivitie is one of the things you need in order for God to open a door never forget that , ive been also praying and studying hard! and i feel like im going to PASS FINALLY one of her hard core exams lol i feel CONFIDENT and it feels GREAT ! And no matter how much sleep or how little sleep you get God will give you back ENERGY to continue in life just TRUST ! Make your self someone BIG and help others that are going through the same thing and show your dad what a great and strong person he let go of 😀
Have faith in God. I have dealt with rejection most of my life and I know how hard it is to get back up and continue with life. God always has a reason for everything that he does. We might not know his plan, but we later find out why he wanted it to be that way. You have come too far and God is not going to give up on you now. Always remember that without suffering there is no compassion. God has chosen you to experience this because he knows you can handle this, otherwise he wouldn’t have allowed this. Trust in God and believe in him everything will be alright. 8)