My Testimony to Jesus Christ
I was delivered from a demon doctors called “Borderline Personality Disorder.” I didn’t know it was a demon until a few weeks after I gave my life to Jesus Christ, which was on March 23, 2016. I know a lot of people don’t like to hear (even good Christians have a hard time hearing and believing it) ‘it was a demon’, but I know it’s important to say it, because it’s true. I understand that it seems “crazy” because not that long ago – I was in the group of people that dismissed such things as “crazy.”
Hollywood has given us an idea as to what demonic possession and oppression is supposed to look like, and it looks made up. It looks like it’s not real and it’s just a fun story to get scared by – that it can’t really happen. We, as humans, have been conditioned to think a certain way about life – from the very second we are born. This includes the spiritual realm. This includes God – and our living God, Jesus Christ. This conditioning includes demons wreaking havoc on the unknowing. It’s not about spinning heads, levitating beds and crawling on walls. It very commonly takes the form of blackout RAGE, crippling DEPRESSION, overwhelming ANXIETY, inexplicable HATRED, consuming GREED – and I’m only stating (some) the symptoms of what I went through.
I don’t know other people’s experience with demons, only mine. But I can say – with confidence in the Lord – that if you don’t have the Holy Spirit in you – something else is in you. I’m not going to get into detail about how horrible my troubles were, but they started around the age of 7. By the age of 29 – it got so bad, I literally felt like I had nowhere to turn. I literally tried every belief, religion or tradition this world has to offer.
When I really started to hit rock bottom, I was even dabbling in Wicca traditions. I was smiting God a lot. I didn’t even really understand why I was smiting Him – when I didn’t even really believe in Him. I understand now it was my demon. I had completely let this demon take over my heart.
It’s a little overwhelming at times to know certain things that happened in my life – that made no sense to me while it was happening – make perfect sense now. For instance: I really hated a good Christian person I was close to at one time. And when I noticed that person falling away from Christ’s’ values, I was really happy. There are so many other instances that I can speak about, but maybe that’s for a different conversation.
After a lot of years in and out of hospitals, countless amounts of prescriptions, countless numbers of doctors and counselors – none of these things ever offered a solution to my “issues.” I couldn’t keep a job. I couldn’t keep a friend. I couldn’t live. I didn’t know how to just get up in the morning and just live.
I got up for years every morning, in complete agony. Silent agony to my friends and family (except my husband) because they didn’t understand. They just saw that I was young, had a house and a lot of animals and just couldn’t understand what I was “crying about” or why I was so “spoiled.” And I don’t blame them – because demons aren’t something easy to understand without spiritual eyes and ears.
I was tackling a “monster sickness” and people – myself included – didn’t know what to do. I just want it to be known that, Jesus took this heavy burden off of my shoulders. After how hard and wicked I let my heart become – he forgave me and delivered me from this demon. I can’t explain it better than a night and day type change. When I opened up my heart to Jesus Christ, and really humbled myself on my knees and begged him to help me – and He did. He heard me this time. Because I asked Him – something I had never done in my life, and I’m thankful everyday that I was led to do so.
I’m learning how to live without all the negative burdens that plagued my life for so long, but it’s been really easy. I take everything to the Lord (and no, it hasn’t been completely perfect) and He ALWAYS shows me the way.
I really do understand about demonic deliverance!! When Jesus comes into our lives–everything demonic has to flee!! Read my testimony at israellights.com
Praise the Lord, in the name of Jesus every knee shall bow! And they that believe will in his name cast of devils! Mark 16:17 & Philippians 2:10
Hello, thank you for your testimony. I have been praying for my husband who has BPD and mania and Narcissistic tendencies. I care about him a lot, I love him. I have been praying for years for him. We can no longer live together because of this. No one seems to understand. My heart is so sad. I want to believe for his healing and repentance. I know God can, but will he choose God as his defense? Deep healing is needed. I’m asking for prayer. I desire his wholeness and freedom. I know the answer is in Jesus’ deliverance, and revelation by the spirit for him. He must hate the lies . Asking for prayer. Thank you for sharing. Hearing success stories help. Not many understand.
As you have stayed with your husband till date, still continue to be with him. I believe you are close to the victory. Whenever one is close to victory, the devil will come fiercer with his storm to scare one so that one can lose the victory. Keep praying for him and I believe the Lord will visit him. He shall be saved and delivered from any of the oppression. I believe you shall share your testimony soonest.
There is an aspect that people do not understand, that is the trauma, oppression, punishment, harassment mental/emotional/psychological torture that a spouse of a person with a personality disorder has to endure. It gets to a time that you have to decide was is best for you as a person when the other person refuses to change. A person who consistently engages in hurtful activity against his spouse does not belong to the category of those who are pleased to live with her. This a real problem that real people are experiencing. I believe there are answers in the Bible that help guide a person in such circumstances but people who are understandably unable to see just how difficult and harmful it is, believing that they are giving the biblical advice for this specific situation, ask people to continue to stew in it. Many suffering people are ignored because they don’t bear the physical scars of their trauma
No matter how hard and terrible any situation is, God can handle it and calm it when we cry unto Him. As children of God, we must allow the Holy Spirit to direct and lead us in our steps. There is a solution to every problem and every problems has its unique way of solving it. This is the need for the leading of the Holy Spirit so one could know what to do at any time in any situation. God has the power to calm the most terrible storm of life.