Ok I am a 19 year old girl. I became a christian like 3 1/2 years ago and alot has happened since then. I had the fact of me being a christian harshly used against me by my christian mom, who also verbally and emotionally abuse me to the point where I didnt want to live anymore. I had a mental breakdown 1 1/2 year ago, I developed some sort of disorder. I’ve been a cutter for the last year and in that same year have tried to kill myself 6 times. And Ive been so depressed that I gave myself away like spare change. And yet I am thankful to God!
I’m not gonna lie I have been angry and hostile towards God and really cynical to other Christians because they portray such perfect lives when I’m clearly a mess. But if it weren’t for God I would be dead right now and that’s why I’m thankful to him.
Anyway the reason I came here is these last few years Ive notice Ive had more of an attration towards other girls and its something Ive always kinda known was there. These last few weeks I’ve been putting it all together and… I am gay!
So this is me coming out but also reaching out. Because I know the bible says its wrong. I don’t know what to do. Can I still be a Christian even though I’m gay? Can I make myself straight? Am I distant to be alone? Is it okay? Help me, I just don’t know.