This was written on the birth of my son, Ben. They said child is now a naughty four year old, Praise to my Jehovah God in the name of Jesus. Hope it encourages all, especially the couples that find it difficult to conceive. Remember we desire ONLY what the Lord desires to give….nothing beyond.
Children are a gift of God and straight from those hands, with the sole intervention of our Lord Jesus Christ, my husband Korah and I were gifted with Ben Jacob Korah, our son, on Thursday 20th March 2008
We are a couple who have been through the storms of life quite early. Within eleven years of marriage, we’ve seen challenges of infertility, illness , marital problems and even death of two very dear and wonderful parents. Even then all I can say is “All things work for the good of those who love God” Romans 8:28
Truly today I see, wherever I look, the pure love and goodness of NOT a punishing avenging God, but a loving , all providing , forgiving Heavenly Father surrounding my family and me. Just as a child goes running to the secure hands of its parent would He shake off us that chose to cling to Him?
“Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb. Yea, they may forget, yet I will not forget thee. Behold I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands: thy walls are continually before me.” Isaiah 49:15, 16.
After a personal experience of submitting my every will to the Lord in June 2007- I discovered that I had conceived without medical aid in July. All I can say is that while others cried out for us, the Lord waited until I was fully ready for His gift and then gave. What our natural bodies could not achieve for so long , the Lord orchestrated within hours. Though my doctors would call it a “high-risk pregnancy”(I had various complications-tendency for blood clotting, a low lying placenta, a breech presentation), I would call it a period so beautiful, pointing out to me how royally the Lord Jesus will provide for those who look to Him for provision from His treasure house. Isaiah 54 was always a promise in its entirety that I stood on, especially verse 13, “and all thy children shall be taught of the Lord , and great will be their peace.” Whenever doubt and fear would try to creep in, I would remember verse 5 “for thy maker is thine Husband, the Lord of Hosts is His name, and thy redeemer the Holy one of Israel, the Creator of the whole earth shall He be called”. When I have such a promise from Him, why should I fear. “The promise of the Lord is good and there is no trouble added to it” Prov 10:22
From leading our selection of doctors, to making a decision to deliver in my parents house, to making sure Korah was present for every important moment, to having a wonderful peaceful pregnancy in the midst of abounding nature and people who surrounded me with love, especially my father, the Lord seemed to be telling me “ask”. “I will provide.” I even dared to pray for a second honeymoon with my husband and the Lord provided such a lavish one, we will remember it for the rest of our lives. Coming to know that our baby was a boy was an even greater proof of the Lords presence with us. My beloved mother, two years before her demise, asÂ proof of her faith in our having a baby, had left me a gift that I found in her closet after her death. It was a dress sewn along with a note , “For Leesa and Aruns baby boy, in the name of the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost.” This itself was an enormous miracle for me.
My baby being a breech presentation and my age being over 36 years, it was decided that I would require a caesarian delivery, I was fully prepared for a natural birth and to through it, to the extent that I was upset by my Doctors decision to operate. After a lot of torment and fear, during prayer, my eyes fell upon Isaiah 66:7 “Before she travailed, she broughtÂ forth, before her pain came, she was delivered of a man child.” My trepidation vanished and once again I felt the companionship of the Holy Spirit reassuring me.
The surgery was scheduled for the Monday after Easter but a checkup on Maundy Thursday revealed I was close to labour. My doctor did not want to risk an emergency ceasarean after labour set in so she did the operation one hour after we met on the same day! Ben was taken from my womb at 12:17pm on Maundy Thursday.
For me it was a joy ride. I got VIP treatment as the doctor was in a hurry to catch the Neonatologist. I received general anesthesia and only remember being presented with a pink snuffling bundle that looked at me with wide open eyes. I never suffered an inch of the pain associated with childbirth. I am humbled at the extent of love and care my Heavenly Father has shown me and nothing now can ever make me doubt Him again.
Ben was found to have a higher rate of respiration than necessary and from birth was in the neonatal ICU for a week. Only Korah and I could go in and take a peek at him. Otherwise total isolation in an incubator was necessary. I underwent testing as the doctors named his problems one by one. Wrong position of the legs, a minor heart problem, jaundice and infection. To be true, I was upset abut the Lord sent me succor through His various messengers. I saw Bens legs straighten to a a normal position the day after an especially close cousin came with messages from the Word and reassurance. Isaiah 66:9 told me ” shall I bring to the birth and not cause to bring forth? Saith the Lord.: Shall I cause to bring forth and shut the womb? saith thy God.”
Today is the day that Ben was due to be born, the 8th of April 2008. As I sit and type this, I look back. He had been discharged and readmitted for Jaundice, even though for just two days. He is now sleeping beside me as I type, a delight and cause of celebration for our enormous family. Family and friends build walls of prayer around us. By the grace of our Lord, he is a good feeder , crying only when hungry or wet. Whatever the circumstances, I look not to the world, but to my Lord Jesus Christ, with whom all things are possible. “Being confident of this very thing, that He which began a good work in me will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ. ” Philippians 1:6
We are confident that our son will be taught of the Lord and will be used by Him for His will on earth. Korah and I have no fears of his future, so certain are we of our resubmission of this awesome gift the Lord has given us.
I hope my testimony will bring you closer to the Lord Jesus Christ. He is an awesome and amazing savior. He who turns the impossible into the possible. “the one mediator between man and God the father. ” 1 Tim 2:5. His word tells us “MY grace is sufficient for you: 2Cor 12:9. If you have Him in your life, you need no other. This is also a prayer for the known and unknown innumerable people who have prayed for Korah and I and our family. May the Almighty Father , His beloved Son Jesus Christ and their Holy Spirit guide and prosper and bless you abundantly.
Your sister in Christ