I don’t know what to Title this. But I Hope someone hears me & Help Me Get back to God!!
Hi, I’m 20 years Old & In need of advice. Ok, I Got saved 2 years ago in 2010 on the 9th of June in a hospital. Where God took me basically to get saved cause I was a drug addict for almost 2years, So he called me. I was very passionate for God, Always looked forward to going to Church & Youth Fridays. I was of Fire for the Messiah, read the Word daily, I was addicted to reading my bible. I Prayed fairly on a regular basis, & in the following year became a Youth Leader at My Church.
Then things got tough. 1 of my Ex Girlfriends came back in my life & Me & Her always had this strange sexual chemistry between us that we couldn’t understand, & so I fell & gave into temptation. I was so blind & led away that My Light dimmed & became a lukewarm Christian.
Things from the got worse, I ended things with her but now I had a empty void inside, & at the time, I couldn’t go back to God cause I felt bad for leaving him. I then fell in love with my own cousin, we were convinced that no one would find out until She fell pregnant, so the truth came out & the whole Family was furious (I Know, Incest. I still can’t believe it either) she then Had a miscarriage, & they were twins. This happened last year June.
Ever since, Its been a higher uphill battle to return to God. My Ex came back into my life, & I fell & gave in to the same trap. & we ended for good this time cause we fought everyday about anything & everything. The devil then saw I was striped down to nothing & it was easier to turn to God at that point but I got trapped with Porn. & I’ve been battling this whole year with it, trying to Break free. I keep repenting, then I go back & do the same sin. Right now, it feels like my heart is to Cold & hard for God to change me.
How do I get back? I want to be saved again & experience the Passion & Fire & Joy I once had in my Salvation. Please Help Me, I don’t wanna take my own life, thinking if God doesn’t want me & has a purpose for me, then why live? I don’t wanna live, if I’m not living for him.
Help!
Dear Brother,
please read Luke chapter 15 verses 1 onwards..
Jesus was in one of the places where He often liked to spend time.. In fact where He prioritised spending His time… with the people that society looked down on. The people who had messed up.
And He tells the story of the lost sheep to show God’s attitude to whoever has gone off track and is not safe with the rest of the sheep. He loves you and cares for you and is searching for you. Jesus talks then about the joy of the Father, the joy in heaven when the sheep is found.. when the lost soul repents or turns back to the Father.
Dear brother, can I suggest you find a wise mature Christian to talk to?
How does someone repent? They agree with God that what they have done is wrong and ask for God’s forgiveness.. and most importantly – ACCEPT it. See 1 John 1 verse 8 – 10 and chapter 2 verses 1 & 2. Realise that Jesus Himself is speaking in your defence. Do you realise that? He is always interceding for you (Romans 8 verse 34). The Holy Spirit is interceding for you (Romans 8 verses 26 & 27). God Himself is working on your behalf to turn all things to good (Romans 8 verse 28).
Can you build good disciplined activities into your life, like daily Bible reading and prayer. Praying out Bible verses as if they were your prayers – see the Psalms. Praising the Lord. Listening to sermons that build you up. Reading testimonies of God’s work in people’s lives. Going to a church that loves the Lord and teaches His Word. Please don’t thing these are things to do to earn God’s forgiveness and love. God’s forgiveness and love are gifts He gives you because of His nature, not because of anything you have done. You just have to accept His gift. These disciplined activities are like a medicine to your spirit to restore you.
I feel there was a ‘door’ open in your life that let this all happen. A place that needed healing and forgiveness. Once the devil gets an inch he takes a mile. But Jesus beat him and with God’s help and by His grace you will take back that ground.
It is a bit like Nehemiah rebuilding the walls of Jerusalem (see that story in the book of Nehemiah).. The enemy had knocked down all the protection around the city.. it was in a vulnerable position but little by little, stone by stone, the walls were built up again.
Think of all the hours you have.. Where are you spending your time? I heard a good description once of our ‘sinful’ nature versus our spiritual nature – the new nature you received when you first believed in Christ – your new nature that is still there. They were described as like two dogs. Which dog grows bigger? The one you feed more.
Dear brother in Christ, please start feeding your new nature with all good and Godly things. Don’t feed the sinful nature even it is hard. If you know a particular route leads to temptation, flee from it. Do everything in your power not even to go down that street. For example, if you know being home alone at a certain time leaves you open and vulnerable, what can you do to avoid that situation until your walls are built up? Please find a mature Christian to pray with.
Psalm 63
“I God you are my God
earnestly I seek you
my soul thirsts for you
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.
…
On my bed I remember you
I think of you
through the watches
of the night
Because you are my help
I sing in the shadow of
your wings
My soul clings to you
your right hand
upholds me”
One thing that I can tell you is, the word says that nothing can seperate of from the love of Christ not even death. Now those things that you mentioned are worth death because they are sin which means that they can’t even seperate you from the love of Christ. Now, people can pray for and yes God will move on your behalf especially of the fact that you say you want help from Him. Throughout the word it says that those who call on the Lord “will” be saved.
You just believe the word of God. And remember that the devil is not going to want to let you go easily that is why it is a fight, you have demonic strongholds in your life, but do not fear because the power of God is more powerful than the power of the enemy. Greater is He that is in you than he that is in the world, remember that. The enemy wants to deceive you into believing that you’ve gone too deep. Notice how im not shocked by what you’ve done, its because sin is sin, its gross and everything opposite from God no matter what kind of sin it is. The thing is that there is only one antidote for sin in general…JESUS the Word of God! It says in the word that demons even tremble at the name of Jesus.
Now by listening to you It sounds like you dont have control over your mind. As a man thinketh then so is he. First you have got to literally CRY out to God, sit and talk, cry out to Him allow yourself to be broken before Him that is first and foremost and He will show up, HE LOVES YOU rememeber the devil hates you so he’s is going to lie to you. Do not entertain foul thoughts because if you do then your going to end up commiting them. You have got to cast down ever imagination, wverthing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought captive to the obedience of Jesus Christ.
Get a hold of some spiritual warfare material, its all over the internet, and push and strive for your freedom so that you will became a slave to God which ends in eternal life with the Father and not a slave to sin which ends in death and eternal damnation.
Yes I do have Problems with my Mind. Wow, I lost control of my thoughts & yes have allowed the Enemy to toy with my Emotions. It does feel like Im tooo deep to ever gain God’s Love for me or even for God to Love me in general. Your replies are so comforting. I want to take Radical measures for my breakthrough. I’l do whatever it takes, to receive salvation again. I really need God’s Grace & not a second later. Im tired & so worn out… Jesus I Need You!!! Especially in the warfare of my Mind & my heart. I feel like the Prodigal son. When he was sitting with the pigs & Said ” I’l go back to my Father and say; Father I have sinned against God and against you. I am no longer fit to be called your son; treat me as one of your hired workers.” Wow I get it now. That moment, the agony he must’ve felt. Its what I feel now. I’l do anything for God, I regret ever turning away. Was at a point of suicide. But I guess If I dont want my life, I might as well Surrender it to the one who gave me Life.
Hi there, l came across your message while browsing through looking for some consolidation. l am going through something similar. Since l met my other ex l became a weak christian, l stopped praying a lot like l used to do, everything was about having fun and a sexual relationship, then he cheated on me. l forgave him but he did it again then l brought it to an end. This time l was so heartbroken that my only solution was to turn to God. l know this happened maybe it was God redirecting me. l became an even stronger christian, l fasted and prayed, God spoke to me through my dreams. l have to mention that at this time in my life l felt this unexplained joy and peace like never before. l felt l had it all, l felt whole and l wanted nothing more. Then l met this boy that l fell in love with. When l got with him l knew he was kind of addicted to sex, but l ignored it and thought to myself “oh well l will just pray about it and hopefully God will step in” but it never went that way, l became cold again and stopped praying or even paying attention to God, but l always had this little voice deep down inside of me telling me l was doing wrong but l didnt care. Up until l found out this boy had been in a relationship for nearly a year and a half, at this time l had only been with him for about 6 months. Everything changed and l broke up with him, but l still love him and l still care. He is addicted to sex and porn. l am a gifted person naturally, l can dream about stuff that can happen and lately l have been having strange dreams about this boy which makes me think that maybe God wanted to use me to help him out. l am praying and l know he will come back and God will change him in the name of Jesus.
All we have to do is believe in what God says. Never give up on prayer, no matter how hard things are and be patient because the moment we give up is the moment God will be about to take action. PUSH Pray Until Something Happens, dont be scared to open up to God. Tell him everything, tell him how you feel, even if you think he isn’t listening. No parent will ever ignore their child when they are in need all because they did wrong. Remember God is always there!
Thank God for what you have and Trust him for what you need.
Peace be with you xx
Dear Brother,
I want to thank you for putting your post up. I can see all of these kind people showing you ways to get back on the right track. I pray that you “get back to God” and you feel that Fire that burns so intensely in your heart. The reason why I thank you for posting this, is that I am going through MANY of the same things that you are. I think your post may be a sign for me to change my life ASAP, since it was posted on my birthday too. I can relate to you about the ex, the cousin, the sex, and the relationship situation. I, honestly, feel like tonight is a turning point for me and my relationship with God. I, too, want to “get back to God” and feel the Fire that I know is there, waiting for me to grab hold of once again. I will continue to pray for you.
Peace Always,
Sister in Christ -19yr
Thanks Guys! Your Encouragements really helps ease the Pain & Agony Im Feeling. I know It’s gonna take all Of me to Breakfree from the Demonic Strongholds I’v picked up along the way. @Michelle I say leave the ‘boy’ dont keep in contact with him. I use 2 say the same thing about my ex, that God wanted me 2 change her, and so I stuck around & she cheated & hurt me bad. & still afterwards I was still in love with her. Not anymore though, I just told God about her & left it at that, so I dont keep in contact with her anymore because of the Chemistry & Soultie that needs 2 be broken. Thanks For All the Prayers, I really need them joined with my 2 Push through. I must say it was hard to share what I shared, but Im Glad I did. & Happy Belated Birthday 2 You Sister, Hope you enjoyed your Birthday, & May you have many, many more! Have a God-Purposed Life as we all strive one:)xoxo
I hope this helps.
In responding to your post, I can relate to the feelings of shame of committing a sin or sins that you feel are so unforgivable that you commit more sins, because you believe God no longer wants you. But God is not like man that He should lie (Num 23:19). He says in Romans nothing can separate you from His love, NOTHING. A simple “Lord I am sorry, truly, receive me into your arms and be my strength to overcome” will suffice, and His word promises that your sin will be as far as the east is from the west (Psalm 103:12). Believe that God is NOT like man and that He is true to His word, Romans 8:38-39 (AMPLIFIED BIBLE) “For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers,
Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
1 John 1:9
If we [freely] admit that we have sinned and confess our sins, He is faithful and just (true to His own nature and promises) and will forgive our sins [dismiss our lawlessness] and [continuously] cleanse us from all unrighteousness [everything not in conformity to His will in purpose, thought, and action].
1 John 2:1-2
MY LITTLE children, I write you these things so that you may not violate God’s law and sin. But if anyone should sin, we have an Advocate (One Who will intercede for us) with the Father—[it is] Jesus Christ [the all] righteous [upright, just, Who conforms to the Father’s will in every purpose, thought, and action].
And He [that same Jesus Himself] is the propitiation (the atoning sacrifice) for our sins, and not for ours alone but also for [the sins of] the whole world.
Psalms 103:12-13
As far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us.
As a father loves and pities his children, so the Lord loves and pities those who fear Him [with reverence, worship, and awe].
Now my brother in the Lord, don’t give the enemy any more glory by remaining in your shame, release it to Him, the Author and Perfecter of your faith. He is waiting for you as the father waited for his prodigal son in the Bible. God waits on you to forgive you, for if God forgives you (if you have repented) then who are you not to forgive you? You are brought with a price, now live in God and if you sin again then ask Him for forgiveness and take the step that God puts in front of you, no looking back. Press onto the mark. Philippians 3:13-14
I do not consider, brethren, that I have captured and made it my own [yet]; but one thing I do [it is my one aspiration]: forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the [supreme and heavenly] prize to which God in Christ Jesus is calling us upward.
IM Pastor Hulisani. my fellow soldier find yourself a Father/ mentor where you are, not pastor but Father. some other time the way down is the way up!!
Paul says from all these things we are more than conquers. bless your heart
Hi,
Many of the comments left for you are good at glance. Please read the scriptures given and check out this resource- New Life Ministries. They deal specifically with sex addictions and other challenges men and women face. Reading your story I immediatly thought that you are caught in a stronghold of sexual addiction even before reading about the pornography. I can understand because in my younger years I certainly had characteristics of sex addiction. Remember that this is a symptom of a larger problem you may have emotionally. The point is Christ is greater than all of it and can heal your heart so that it is no longer a stronghold in your life. Please do so as Pastor Hulisani suggested – get surrounded by Godly, loving men like today! I will pray now for you – Father in Heaven, you are great and mighty. You say in your word that if we cast our cares upon you, You will be there for us. You also promise to forgive us and transform us as we repent. Please look on my brother and give Him a spirit of faith, hope and love through You Christ. Please surround him with believers who will not judge but bear his burdens as you’ve called us to in Galatians. I pray deliverance and victory in his sexual integrity. I also pray reconciliation in his family. In Jesus name I pray and believe you will do this! Amen.
All i can say is that am right now going through the almost same thing the devil is using my desire to take me down i keep going back to an ex who easily denied Christ and wants nothing to do with HIm
Psalms 107 v20
Jeremiah 1:12
I will plant a seed by praying for u
in the mean time read the Word of God and by that u will be revived it starts with the action.
Hi I’m 18 and I need some help I use to love reading the bible and I still do and I go to youth group and I love it. The thing is I feel I lose God more and more each day and I really try but it seems he’s not there. I have only experienced him 2 times. What should I do?? I really want him to be in my life.
Thami,
You may want to think about getting married. Of course don’t just get married to keep from sinning you want to be in love. But, since you have a history of drug abuse you may want to consider Teen Challenge also. There are many options for you but God needs you to be a yielded vessel. When you get sick and tired of being sick and tired or hit rock bottom, you will have no choice. Instead why don’t you save yourself years of heartache and misery and surrender now. You are still young and God has such great plans for you. I was in my fourties before I finally surrendered. If I had allowed Jesus into my life when I was younger many lives would not have had to suffer. Remember that you can do all things through Christ who gives you strength!
Your Sister in Christ
Dear Brother!I feel so much pain for you!How can you believe that you are too cold and too hard for God!Don’t listen to a lie!However, God realy want you to take the finals step!That doesn’t mean you won’t fall again but… surely you will not go back on the “old”ways!Jesus said, He wil turn no-one away who comes to Him!The fact that you realise your life is a mess, means that God AGAIN will take you back!Please hear the words :”Go, but sin no more!” You have mentioned your sins and fall over and over again!I don’t think you can match me!I feel like Paul who said he is the worst of all , but … what a Mighty God we serve!!!He didn’t hang on the cross for one human – Jesus the Almighty God and Savior took the sin of the whole world on Him!He did not just do that, He also destroyed Satan and all of his works of darkness -Jesus who has the keys to close or open gates of heaven or hell, will cast all darkness and workers of darkness in hell !I call you “my brother”because through Jesus we are brothers!I believe that God is taking you for finals.In ourselves, we won’t make it, but …through Jesus nothing is impossible!If you repent and if you are serious about what you want, Jesus won’t fail you! Jesus Christ the Almighty can not and will not fail His Word! Go on your knees today/tonight and know there are many people(children of God) praying for you! Believe that Jesus paid in full and in advance!You can live your life to the full…just listen and do what God tells you to do – Go and sin NO MORE!Thank you Jesus for helping this man to his feet!Even Petrus sunk into the see – although he has been with You for so long Jesus, his faith failed him in the storm!He was with you Father God, seeing many miracles and felt your physical touch…yet his faith let him down just as the other dissipels!That is why You say:”Blessed are those who didn’t see but believe!” God,You know this child of yours – please forgive him for his faithfulness and disobedient behavior,we ask that in the wonderful Name of Jesus our King, and let him walk the line with you again, all by the working of Your Holy Spirit !Unto you Father Lord, all the glory forever and ever !God bless you brother!He is the Light the Way and the Truth – follow Jesus!Amen
Thanks everyone. You just made me cry like a little girl. I don’t even know if you will get this. It’s over a year. Thank you for Google Jesus. And thank you for wise people.