Everyone’s testimony is pretty much the same, but all are unique in their own way. Everyone was lost, and now they are found. Here is my story.
I am currently 13 years old, and I truely came to God in March 2010, at a conference at my church. I thought I had come to God when I was about 7 years old, but I didn’t truely know what it meant. I was just repeating after someone and didn’t know the true meaning behind the words. My Dad tried to explain the decision I had made to me, but I still didn’t grasp the “Beautiful Exchange” that Jesus had done for me.
Before I came to Christ, I was in the worst relationship I could imagine, and it still hurts to think about it. There was a boy at my school whom I thought I was in love with, and I grew attached. But the thing is, he just used me as a sexual relief for himself. I kept telling myself that he loved me no matter what and gave almost everything I had to him. I, in fact, was lucky that I didn’t lose my “physical” virginity, though I lost my “mental” one. My mind was going places it shouldn’t have.
And then came the day, that he decided to leave me on the floor, beaten and broken, with nowhere to go. I had left my friends for him and adopted his friends. I had been worshiping the boy I thought I was in love with; he was my idol. I had found out that he had been messing around with one of my old friends behind my back, which really opened my eyes. I left him, but I kept coming back, as I had told myself that he was my only way of comforting myself.
Then, he had enough of me. He didn’t talk to me, or glance at me, or anything. I tried to do everything I could to get his attention. I dressed in not-very-conservative clothing and flirted as much as someone could flirt. But there was nothing I could do. He had moved on.
But I didn’t want to. I resorted to self-injury, to try and get his attention so he could realize how much I “loved” him. I showed him and I friends my scars, hoping they would notice that THEY were the reason I had done it, and so that they would feel sorry for me. I told myself that it was okay to cut myself, because the cuts were small, and that they would eventually heal and go away.
I then realized I didn’t want them to heal, but either way, there was nothing I could do about it. I thought about God, and how he will always heal me, and I tried to stop. But there was nothing I could do. I was addicted, and I had fallen into a trap.
I was lucky that my parents had discovered what I had been doing and discovered the scars on my ankles. They were more heartbroken than I thought. They were seeing their daughter throw her life away. The more that you cut, the closer you are to dying, and the weaker you become.
They tried to do everything they could to help me, but I didn’t want to stop. I liked the pain, I liked having something about me that was different, and having a dark secret that I wasn’t afraid to share. I needed attention, I needed love. They ended up finding me a counselor to talk to about this.
I came to God when I heard Bishop TD Jakes speak at my church. He is a very powerful speaker, and he opened my eyes to the world. I looked 2 seats over and saw my mom crying. I started crying, because I knew she was crying for me. She didn’t want to see me dead and gone away from her. I started crying my eyes out. I didn’t want to leave her, I didn’t want to leave my friends, my family. I was embraced by those around me, and the woman in front of me whispered in my ear,
“You are loved.”
Those words spoke to me, and I knew they were true. A light ignited in me, and it is still shining. And my life has changed since. I have adopted my old friends, which are strong in God and had been praying for me during that time. I’ve grown closer in God and though I am not perfect, I try to make an effort every day. The spiritual candle inside of me had been lit, and it is still shining.
I want to spread that fire, I want to have a contagious flame, that everyone wants. I want people to notice that I am different. I am trying to treat people with respect, because you never know what struggles they are going through at home.
God has given me a gift, the gift of compassion, and seeing that people are hurting out there, and that I can help make a difference by bringing them to God. Though I still had a few struggles after coming to Christ, through counseling and going to church camp, I grew closer to God and developed ways to relieve the tension inside of me. I am truly lucky, and my eyes have been opened to the truth– That I am loved by God, no matter what.
I was lost, and now, I am found.
You’re a very wise girl for 13. just know that God’s mercy runs deep. and He does truly love you! as for that boy, he needs prayer. God Bless you in His deep love! stay strong and focused!
A victorious ending. Praise God. You’re deep desire to remain in God and have His Flame keep burning in you, a living testimony is wonderful.
God Bless
Hello Precious One!
Praise and Glory to God for your testimony! You are truly loved and precious to the Lord and all of us. We love you all unconditionally. Pray and believe the Lord Jesus Christ alone will be glorified through your precious beautiful life. take good care always.
God bless U. Jesus loves U!
Praise the Lord, a very touching story, :) God will use you mighitily
Hey my sister in Christ Jesus!
Oh my goodness! What a Blessed Testimony!
You know, I am 18 years old, and went through some of the similar things you went through……Wow, God is awesome isn’t he? And when he lights that fire in you, there is no turning back! Glory to God! I will be praying that God continues to lead you in the way that’s everlasting, In Jesus Name. God BLess you and never give up,no matter what! Keep going, because God has a plan and a job for you! Jeremiah 1:5
God Bless!
YAY!!!! What an AWESOME testimony sweetie!! I’m SO proud of you!! Thank You Papa, for showing her TRUE love!! God bless you baby girl. You are going to do SO much awesomeness for God’s Kingdom! SOOOO many people are going to be set free just by your testimony!! WOOOO JESUS!!!
Yeh, I could relate to that, Broken hearted. Praise the Lord he gives us his own heart to be compassionate about the pain and sufferings of others. by his grace we are who we are. AMen
Hey there. You know, in Christ alone there is salvation, comfort, true peace and rest! Get to know Him through the Bible (the Scriptures). Read them everyday. Learn from Christ and obey Christ’s teaching when it is given to you. Give Him your all, your everything, and He will give you everything of Him. God bless you in this.
Hey everyone! I’m a 17 year old girl.I come from a religious family. Through out these 17 years of my life I never had a boyfriend, not boasting but yes I am beautiful… but then BAM! my mom is waaaay to strict and stuff… even though at times i felt like having one, EVEN today I dont have one and when I tell it to people they don’t believe me! lol anyways, I dont exactly remember but I read something about masturbation and my friend introduced me to this disgusting thing called “porn.” I soon got so into these dirty things… stupid teenage harmones duh! I feel guilty everytime, promise myself I wont do it again and I end up doing it! I realize my mistake everytime and I’ve started cutting my right wrist! I am sooo much into GOD and I know that I’m doing something wrong but I cant help it at times. I feel so pathetic, sick, perverted at times that I just wish i could die! how can I do such horrible things! gosh! SOMEONE GUIDE ME! My parents think m innocent and stuff! I am losing myself WHAT DO I DO! I feel so guilty :'(