Jehovah Jireh !!! Jehovah Rapha !!!! (The Lord our Provider, The Lord our Healer!!!)
I would like to share with you what my God has done for me again! Yes! He is the only Living God! – Lord Jesus Christ! (In case you don’t understand some thing you’re free to write back…)
I’d got a disease! Which I didn’t consider serious, thought it’s some kind of infection…. And since I’ve been too busy with my work, I didn’t even go to the doctor… just prayed, Lord I’ve some thing, please heal me if you wish… But nothing happened and I knew I’ve to learn something from this… Any way, I went to the doc. in January…. And he diagnosed and prescribed a medicine… telling that it’s some kind of infection… and asked me to come back if it do not improve… After the treatment it got worse than improving! During this time, God talked to me that I’m not giving enough time as before…. but I’d my own reasons to justify!!!
Finally in April, I fixed another appointment with the doc. After that I came to read from Deu 28 the “curse for disobedience”, I’ve had enough from Lord! But when I later read about the blessings of coming back, I was relived… But I couldn’t believe that He was talking to me, since I couldn’t imagine that I had been disobedient to Him.
Then next week on Monday (7/4), I went to the doc. This time it was a new doc. After examining he said it’s a different disease. He asked whether I’d it before or any one else in the family have this. I denied any of those things smiling! He asked me to read the details of the disease on the net and advised not to look at the acute forms. He told I’m having it in the mild form and prescribed some medicine. I read the details and was shocked to read the details and photos shown… some highlights are
– Chronic illness (non-curable)
– all treatments have side effects leading even up to skin cancer!
– docs have to do trial and error to find the right medicine for different people to keep it under control! Just as the He told me through the scriptures a few days ago.
My heart sank reading all these things. Now I took the matter seriously. (Before that I did not give any importance for it, just something unusual) I prayed with broken hearted…… bec. He has revealed me the reason for the disease!
- my relationship with Him has come down in the course of time from inhabitation to occasional visitations!! *1
- I’ve been complaining that I’ve too much work, no place of my own.*2
- I’d prayed to bring me back to original love at any cost! …because I couldn’t do it probably because I didn’t try enough!
Then, instead of going back to Him, I went to doc! And there is no wonder that things got worse!!! I decided to give more time for Him, and continue to pray for the disease…Monday eve it self I felt something strange…. Tuesday morning I saw difference in the situation, I thought that “it could be that I’m being healed” not sure… any way. I’d to pick up the prescription at the pharmacy. Reaching there I was surprised to see that there is discrepancy between what the doc told and what they offered! I’d to go back to doc again and he said “something strange” has happened and I can go and pick them again! It felt like He is telling me something! … still praying about it… On Wed I felt much relief, wounds have really changed!
I’d to pick the medicine, I went and found that 240gm of medicine cost ‚¬115/$125! The lady at the desk said this is very expensive!! Many things came to my mind…… powerful chemical! side effects! I’m already healed (?)…. that whole day was battle going on in my mind… between spirit and flesh! I really knew my faith is being tested!! I decided not to use it till eve, after reading the warnings stuff maybe I’ll see whether to use or not! And I’ve appointment with the doc on Thu, if I’m not healed , what will I tell him, yes a lot of questions.
I felt that the devil is putting doubts in me and it’s hard to believe! As I was still praying on the issue, I got 1 kin 18 to read, the title was “Elijah’s message to Ahab”. My first conclusion was it’s going to be a bad message and that He has waited enough and that I’m now totally lost… But as I read on, indeed He was talking to me! Not a curse, but a blessing. And through verse 36 & 37 he assured me that He is healing me!
1 Kin 18:36-37 And it came to pass, at the time of the offering of the evening sacrifice, that Elijah the prophet came near and said, “Lord God of Abraham, Isaac, and Israel, let it be known this day that You are God in Israel and I am Your servant, and that I have done all these things at Your word. Hear me, O Lord, hear me, that this people may know that You are the Lord God, and that You have turned their hearts back to You again.”
I was cut in heart because I didn’t believe in the first instance. There were reasons for my prayer being not answered before! Yes, I’d prayed for this before many times!
- I did not do my part
- I was complaining instead of submitting myself to His counsel
- Furthermore, my prayer was not out of need, it was a lousy one!
Thursday morn it’s more better. I asked to heal me completely before next Thu so that I can testify to the doc. I’m glad that He chastened me again, for “If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons; for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons.” (Heb 12:7-8). He still shows mercy to me even when I rebel!
Yes, by this time I’m sure that He has healed me. And I decided not to take the medication… More than a physical healing it was for my spiritual healing that He allowed this… *3
And today (Thursday) I went to the doc. Even though he did not probably like my idea, he agreed that he’ll not prescribe anything more now… asked me to pray continually, go in sun :) … and if in case things get worse, I should come back! I’m sure, if I continue in His path I’ll not have to go back again! Glory to His Name! Yes, He is a wonderful God! And He is the same yesterday, today and FOREVER!!!!
I pray that He’ll continue to keep me in His path and let nothing separate us! And I pray that through this many will see His glory and believe that He is the only One God!
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*1 : Baptism of Holy Spirit is His indwelling in ourselves which is necessary to “walk in Spirit”. And speaking in tongues (as the scriptures say) is a clear visible sign for it. And it’s the promise to all who believe and baptised in His Name (Acts 2:38)
*2 : But He has blessed me beyond my imagination in both cases! But I was being ungrateful!
*3 : Please do not misunderstand, I’m not against medicine, I used to be when I didn’t had enough understanding! yes, of course He can work with and with out a medium! But this incident He clearly told that it’s just to bring glory to His Name! And I wanted to give Him all the Glory and the credit! Yes, it was a deal!!